today my father told my brother that he doesnt...

today my father told my brother that he doesnt approve of my tongue split. this means that if i go ahead and get it, he will not pay for college, my insurance, my phone bill, anything.

mind you, this is a very quiet personal modification that will take about 2 weeks to be unnoticeable. i will still be the same person. i will live my life the same way. i will like the same things and eat the same things and work just as hard and be just the same.

this is something i am doing for myself. because i want it. i want to embrace this idea and apply it to myself. and be who i am. but if i follow through with it, my parents will abandon me and refuse to financially help me even though i am a hard working college student.

i am going to go through with this. so many people will say “youre stupid, youre giving that all up for nothing, just wait, blah blah blah” but i am an adult. i have done the necessary research and i understand the repercussions. i love my father very much. i just need him to understand that the things on the inside dictate who i am outside, not visa versa.

fuck.