January 2010
Recession.
I have come to the realization that we are in a recession.
the value of life decreases every day. i havent been on this earth long but long enough to know that things arent the way the were; to know that things arent right.
nobody respects themselves or anyone else for that matter. because we only have fun when we destroy our bodies. the bodies of others. their hearts.
breaking each others...
There’s something inside of me. I don’t know what it is. I don’t know what it wants. But it’s alive. It starts in my vains. Leaks into my brain. I hear it whisper in a sickly familiar tone. It drains unintelligable thoughts into my ear drums as I slip into sleep. I feel it grip my hand and drag me into unfamiliar, uncomfortable places and situations. When I am injured, it...
Depravity.
I’m clinging loosely to prayers that lately I feel as if have fallen upon deaf ears.
Where are You? Where are You as my faith waivers? Where are You in this blinding haze? And where were You? Where were You when I would seek to find joy in my trials and found no peace? Where were You when I did not doubt Your love but could not feel it? And why won’t You answer me? … Why won’t Your...
another nail in the casket.
im fucking sick. you want want want all these things. and somewhere amongst connecting and releasing synapses, i want them too. but considering the way things are (the way you make things). im just not quite sure how you expect it to happen.
ive got so much pressure. from so many angles. from inside myself. but something just says no.
your jealousy. your rage. your spite. your lies. your...